Déjà vu

I used to get really strong feelings of déjà vu—so vivid it felt like I remembered the feeling of déjà vu.

Like so many things grazing mysticism, this kind of thing is interesting to me because science has yet to fully explain it.

Most of the times I felt déjà vu were in situations that could not have actually happened before. Like the time I was having dim sum in Waterloo with a group of people I was meeting for the first time.

Or, more recently, when my husband and I were being driven by realtors we had just met to developments in Cyprus that didn’t exist the last time we were in the country.

I like to imagine that déjà vu is a memory of another life. I’m not quite sure if it’s cyclical lifetimes or parallel ones. But I am open to the idea that this life isn’t the only one.

Perhaps it’s like a video game, and déjà vu are memories of past “plays” where I’ve taken the same path until now. Is that good or bad? I don’t know. I used to see it as a good thing…that I was on the “right” path. Until the last long break between feelings of déjà vu and I wasn’t sure what to think of that theory.

Or maybe it’s like the “multiverse” and somehow all of our versions of us are connected somehow. And when there’s an overlap in an event on different timelines, those threads of connections are stronger and feel like déjà vu.

And, for me, the sensation of déjà vu is distinctly different than the feeling of “I’ve dreamt this”. Because, alongside déjà vu, I’ve had strongly vivid lucid dreams for as long as I can remember. And when I “feel” a pst dream in waking life, it’s different than déjà vu. I know it was a dream I’m recalling.

Or maybe I’m fooling myself and it’s merely a dream I don’t consciously remember.

Because that’s a much more logical explanation for the whole thing, isn’t it?